"Holy are You God, Holy is Your name
With everything I've got, my heart will sing how I love You."
That's the sound that resonates in my mind this week.
The sound of the campers, counselors, leaders, worship team just pronouncing
a battlecry of those words to God.
The sound of people, one by one, nailing a piece of paper to the wooden cross.
The sound of no instruments, just their voices, singing of "how He loves us".
The sound of surrender.
The sound of peace.
I'll tell you what. I'm struggling putting into words the impact Camp Wakefield 2011 had on me, personally.
A few times during the week, I felt down, stressed, or even just frustrated at everything. Alyssa told me one day, "Jamie, don't you know that those thoughts are from the enemy because he knows something amazing is about to happen by your almighty God tonight and this week?"....she was so right.
God moved, and although He is always there, the kids allowed Him to make moves in their lives. It was incredible. The cross was there symbolically for everyone to nail a sheet of paper with something they want to 'give to God' written on it, to the cross. At any point of day. Well, that thing was full by Day 3.
I, myself, even wrote a few things on that cross:
1. My brother.
2. That feeling of not being worthy enough to worship, or lead worship.
3. Unforgiveness of myself.
4. "I surrender ALL" which is what I challenged my girls to do.
During the "Cardboard testimony" night, I was quickly challenged wth honesty.
Do I write on the cardboard everything I went through before Christ encountered me, or just a few things?
Well, I wrote the majority of it down. And oh how God lined up the girls right in front of me. Prayer was strong and so powerful that night. I felt God speaking through me like I have never felt.
As the week went on, 4 teenagers received God into their life. Praiiiise God. I am so stoked for them. SO stoked. Then some of the girls requested to hear my testimony....full throttle testimony....
I gave it. All of it. Before and after. Every detail.
I've never done that before. It's not because of shame, but just nervousness that it will bring back the feelings I had, like unforgiving feelings. But no, God had other plans.
Those girls opened up so quickly after that. Then I felt clarity that I was exactly where I needed to be at that exact moment.
Friendships at camp....where to begin with that. I've inherited some great family members in my life. All the campers plus counselors have a very large part in my heart. They always will.
God is good. Seriously. And even as I am home now, I feel the joy of God just filling me. No more stress, no more thoughts of unforgiveness, but rather, I am new again.
Lord, search my heart and soul, because You rest there. Thank you for an incredible week.
<3 J. King
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